Monday, August 23, 2010

Fall is coming...

I am now at this moment all that I need to be.~Unknown

The other day, I saw these beautiful maple seeds, helicopters, floating from the sky as I was driving.

It gave me a childlike sense, a soft, quiet and narcotic feeling.  Comfort!!  

This experience allowed me to open my mind and reminisce about the times when I'd walk to school.  I would stop to watch the fluttering maple seeds, floating aimlessly; as though they were orchestrated in some way.  There's a natural flitter, flutter as the seeds softly glide through the sky down to the sidewalk in front of me.

I picked one up and observed the seedling at the bottom of the web like tip that I was almost able to see-through.

I drive my convertible and each time I see a helicopter flutter through the sky I felt a sense of my childhood; knowing fall is coming.

Fall... one of my favorite seasons.  I imagine the scents of the fall leaf, the sights of their turning bright colored transitions, the sights of the dancing seedlings falling from the trees, and feelings of the cooler wind fidgeting in my face and the fresh dark-auburn acorns that we couldn't eat.
These are deep-strewn memories that are glued to my intuition, my life and my inner-self.

The winged helicopter seeds spin, falling from the high elevated branches; just as life spins on, from the higher form of elevation.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Jump in, the water is really not that cold ...

Gradual, safe exposure to whatever makes us anxious is always the most powerful way of eliminating anxiety.—Martha Beck

This quote is a wild contrast to what I actually do in life.  Rather than "gradually ease into it", I just dive right in.

Last year when I was training for the Chicago marathon I decided during peak training to throw in a half ironman; because, one, I've never done a half ironman in my life, two, I wanted to see if I could do it, and three, I thought it would be a great substitute for a long peak training run.  The ironman happened to land on the weekend of our 21st wedding anniversary, traditionally we take a long Harley ride up to Door County to enjoy a few days of nature, Peninsula Players and, of course, a fish boil.

Since this was the case, we rode six hours to arrive to pick up my packet, late the evening before the race.  I didn't get much sleep that night , the race start was early and I had an hour drive to get there.  The details of the race can be saved for another time, however, I ended up finishing my first half ironman, ever!!! I even made it within the time I estimated for myself.  Nothing to brag about, but I did it!  I shaved off over an hour on my bike split, so I was happy.

Today, I approach another challenge, to complete a 90 mile bike race around Lake Winnebago.  I have never biked 90 miles in my life, the most I've done is the 60 miles in the Ironman.  I signed up anyway.  I've been working hard to get my body prepared to kick off training for my next marathon.  A marathon that I plan to run in December.  I can say I'm in shape!  However, I wonder if I am trained for this type of bike race. =S  Another early start, one hour drive to the start and a little more nervous for this one given there is a 12.5 mph cut-off at the 30 mile water stops. It's going to be an experience.

It seems I approach my life this way.  I believe if I dip my toes in the water to see if it is too cold, there's a chance I might talk myself out of getting in.  If I jump in feet first and realize, I'm already in the water, "I keep going".  It's easy enough to say; but, can you do it?  What are you going to do with all of those things that you have on the back burner.  Those things that you've seen someone else do and say "I've always wanted to do that."  It's time to take the plunge!  The water is really not that cold.  Who knows, you might just gain some new insight, experiences and have fun.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

It’s not that people aim too high and miss, it’s that they aim too low and hit.

It seems obvious to me that we are most productive, persistent, creative, and flexible when we’re engaged in precisely the combination of activities that brings us maximum fun.~Martha Beck

I have never been good with directions; and then I always seem to take either the round-about or longer route. I call myself direction-dyslectic. Just come ride along with me to a place I have never been and you will have witnessed at least one of my “Kim’s U-bangy’s”.  Yes, I even labeled them!  I find myself turned around in a place I’ve never been many times.

Some people laugh at me, some have it all figured out stating that “men have a better direction sense than women” and others, sit quietly in the passenger seat and ride along on the whirlwind route of loops, swerves and valleys.   It’s amazing the places I end up seeing by taking these routes!  Like the other day, I was driving to find a bay on the Ocean-front of New Brunswick. We turned off the major highway and, since the gps didn't work in Canada, I guessed. It ended up being one of the most beautiful routes I have seen.  We stopped on roads that ended at the water and a ferry stopped, I drove on and I enjoyed the ride to the other side where I continued on the road.

Its fun traveling, however, I have to admit, I enjoy it more when I have my atlas, gps, computer with MapQuest and my notepad with scribbles of notes and destination addresses and phone numbers. I arrive at my destination eventually, it may not always be the place I expect. That’s what makes traveling such an adventure!

Traveling inspires me, opens my eyes to new thoughts and ideas!  I have done and created so much from my traveling experiences.  It's courageous to explore those unknown places to you.  It's time to go out on a limb!  Go places you've never been; make a u-turn or two and see where you end up.  The adventure is yours! Enjoy the u-bangy's because they will take you to places that you would never expect.  And finally, have fun!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

All serious daring starts from within.~Joan Baez

Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you; they're supposed to help you discover who you are.~Bernice Johnson Reagon
I love traveling to different places, it makes me open my mind and change perspective on what I'm doing in my life.  I've been on a road trip driving cross-country these past couple of weeks and I find myself in unfamiliar territory.  This trip was a spur-of-the-moment thing.  I wasn't going to go, however, my daughter needed to head to the east coast and I will do everything in my power to support her in her lives endeavors.  So, off we went.  My daughter and I have an incredible relationship, sometimes I have to pinch myself because I cannot believe how well we get a long.  I appreciate this gift every day.  Don't get me wrong, there are times that we have our disagreements and I really need to keep an open mind, however, those are minor compared to the overarching picture.

We've had so much fun on our trip, we stopped and walked around Cleveland and had a panini sandwich, with layers of everything all in one sandwich.  It was pretty good!  Touring Hershey Park, we made our own chocolate bars and of course, we stopped to visit family in the quaint little place called Shephardstown in West Virginia and stopped in Boston to get a glimpse of Paul Revere's home.  So far we've traveled the states of IL, IN, OH, WV, PA, MD, NY, VA, RI, CT, MA, NH, ME.  Visiting a friends family in New Brunswick Canada for the first time is exciting. Canada is beautiful, with rolling hills, lakes, rivers and oceanfront all wrapped up into one.  The many shades of green capped trees layered on the landscape.  I can see why Anne of Greene Gables loved it here, there's something magical about it.

It's been a fun adventure and stories that we can talk about.  All these wonderful memories created with my daughter who is slowly spreading her wings.  Her experiences, much different than my own.  Each of us take a journey, sometimes alone, sometimes with someone or groups of people; the choice, it's our own. The most pivotal times that we stay alive, keep our minds open to the new, and allow ourselves to reach, stretch and grow.  These are the times of our lives to remember, hold close to us.  It keeps us alive!